Sunshine on a Rainy Day

when feelings soar

clouds turn blue

your touch so tender

your voice like

mountain due

touches my soul

caresses my skin

words can't express

the highway I'm on

smile on my lips

rush in my heart

as your touch deepens

and all inhibitions 

fall apart...

only to meet in the 

far dimensions 

time beyond reality

en-captured 

an eternity

in it's pure clarity 

Seeing you Seeing Me

 

I smile out of time

Glitter off the glass

Catch that gleam

In your eyes

Lips just so apart

Reflected movement

Yet still

Touches my heart

As a smile

Wets my lips

In the knowing

Causing sunshine

And ripples in

The flow we both

Know is the

Door to the soul

Now exposed

Unraveled

Impartial to

The exposure

Of a naked

Counterpart

Contemplation in Comparison

What is it that we have

I’m not sure I know

I feel the rain on my face

Not really there

It’s just my thoughts 

roaming once again

Out of place

Do you hear me

See my thoughts

As they stroll

Across my face

Lazy still and gently

Feeling each smile in the

Edges of your embrace

Do you feel my touch

From miles apart

Does it hurt at all

That much

Floating drifting wandering

You and I

In a never ending stream of

Honest ties

Do you hold me

Close within your heart

When darkness falls

And we are apart

Can you see me

As I sit and cry

Silent tears of longing

Wanting to feel your touch

Deep inside

Touch me now

Just hold me

Make me feel not alone

Enter in and take me

Beyond all control

When together 

our emotions

Will explode

Say My Name...say my name

My heart beats quicker
Every time I think of you
My soul sighs
In anticipation
Of a love I feel
I say am peaceful
Sitting here
Watching the evening
Turn to night
But in truth
I'd rather be
Holding you wonderfully
Tight
The stars haven't come out 
As yet
There's not a cloud
In the sky
But the miss you 
Feeling 
In my heart 
Is the part that makes 
Me want you 
Nearby
I sit hear and
I await to see
A call
text
A voice speak
My name
say my name
Make me feel
Like only you know 
how
With that
Smile in your voice
Like a kiss in the rain
When I hear you 
Say my name...
Say my name


9/24/2015
8:20 PM

Your Touch is Enough

You can read my thoughts and fill my mind 
Now touch my heart with that touch of time
Take me as I am in you and 
make me swell under the song renewed
For a monkey in silk is a monkey no less
As I borrow these words ...from a song you sing
I realize that I enjoy the ride....this flow...
this swing....I'm in

                                                                                                                                                9/9/2015      9:50 AM
                                                                                                                               
The Air That I Breath


And I lie here and 

dream of you 
Touching me through 

the silk and perfume
Musk and honeysuckle 

dew drops and rain
fragrance of you and me 
Fills my senses, 

intoxicates my brain
Each caress, 

a soft brush of desire 
My lips are parted 

moist and willing
To feel your passion 

fill me within
I see your face. 

Your smile. Your eyes.
The twinkle with 

a naughty rise
I bite my lips 

just slightly swollen 
I want that kiss 

not bought or stolen

In & Out

The rain pours down
You are not around
I feel the drops in 
my eyes

Water upon water 
but then it ain't tears 
why...'coz it not a reason 
to cry

You can be selfish 
sometimes
but I guess
that's the ways of the 
world

When I need you around
You prefer to stay 
sleeping
not awake to be
found and heard

Now if  only
I could 
hold you
touch your face
feel your skin

My heart will be 
a singing
to the tune of the rain 
beating in

My eyes like
stars will shine
my smile 
encompassing
the night chill

Yes, if only but only
you were around
to cuddle me
under your chin

If that sounds 
like a cliche'
then be it as it may
for to me its just 
another reason
to write my whimsical
Poetry

I SEE GOD 

I see God

In all these places

Touching lives

Happy faces

I see the world

Healed

When they honour

And with humility

Believe

I see you

And I see me

And I wonder

How it's

come to be

That I've been drawn

Closer still

When unworthy

I stand and pray

Disobedient

Distant and

Don't obey

But it is these

Very thoughts

That I must conquer

If I'm to give

My all

All my heart mind and soul

To our God

Who knows me

And knows my all

Transparent I fall

Into your arms

Stretch them out

Please take charge

My life is yours

Has always been

Now I see

What I'd not seen

I belong to

Him alone

And he is my guide

Savior and friend

On who I can

Trust and depend

Tell him

Just what's in my heart

For he has known me

Right from the start

And as I see him

As I see anew

I know I smile

With a heart

Touched

By truth

With or Without You

Why I want you so

I just don't know

you touch my soul

in your afterglow

I feel that sense

of longing

deep within,

an ache inside

my heart that's

oh so hard to fill

Just a word

from you

and I am on fire

its hard to express

this, smoldering

desire

When Souls find Each Other

WINTER'S TALE

Magically touched my heart with the white horse of the air, the breathtakingly beautiful settings that were painted with  the words...Mark Helprin has used to describe the scenes. The exquisite and almost angelic formation of the characters. Its a unique story. The beauty is in all the hidden messages and meaning there is within the story.

Horse he said, "we really must be going."

This is a slightly unusual story and it's written with the flare and style necessary to bring out the uniqueness  of it.

                            Hook, Line & Sinker.

Once again I have the good luck to receive Chhimi Tenduf-La's latest book as a gift. A gift that puts a smile on my face for more than one reason.

I turn the first page and I am taken aback. This is a totally different story from his first book, The Amazing Racist...but then I start to read and there it is - the easy style of fluid words that seem to pour forth with ease from this author. Chhimi has a way with words that one could say hooks you and holds you captive to his tale.

‘Now I see you sitting in the corner of Grade Three, knees drawn to your chest. You’ve never been in a sauna, I know that, but this is what it’s like. The sun heats up the tin roof above you, so you sweat till your muddy t-shirt is drenched, but still your teeth chatter. You shiver. It’s fear, it’s sadness, it’s anger.’

‘Prabu squatted, his backside just half an inch off the sand, his arms hugging his burnt-matchstick-like legs. To his right, a girl, maybe his age, likely Tamil, plaited hair and frisky eyebrows, selling Frangipani flowers to tourists.’ - Panther

It seems he is an author capable of adding humour to any situation, which is not that easy to do and yet, from the moment you turn the first page you are caught hook, line and sinker. You just can’t put the book down. Now there are some books that are good and others that are slower...however Chhimi Tenduf-La writes in such an easy and captivating style that, you don’t feel like placing a book mark in your book, to read it later. You just feel like you really need to read one more page and then another and another, until you have read the whole book.

I can only compare this feeling to an addiction of sorts. The feeling one has when they have strange urges, unbearable longings and insatiable desires.

Yes ! he is a writer that unlike others, totally relaxes your mind as you read. I will be honest and say I would generally not read books that even remotely revolved around our Sri Lankan war memories...yet Panther paints many pictures, amidst the facts, that tell a tale. This is not just a story but it’s a story with a morale, a message and flavour...yes ! once again Chhimi Tenduf-La has given us a winner!

Panther has a lot of interesting twists and turns but the subtle twist at the end is the one I liked best.

Ps: Not giving that away...Panther is well worth reading to find that out for yourself.

NEARER THAN FURTHER

I feel you near 

I touch the air

Hold you close 

 I feel your breath

Kiss your lips

Feel them wet

You are strength

I hold tender

You are the voice 

that touches

 me in wonder

My whole being

engulfed

I awake from 

sweet  slumber

    

• 

Counting Stars

     

If I had to walk

A million miles

To get to where you are

You know I’d walk one million more

To get to you by far

If I had to swim a thousand seas

To hear you say I’m yours

You know in your heart

I’d be there

Before you call my name

If all that you were

Was just a man

Without a claim to a dime

You know I’d still hold you dearly

Forever until the end of time

What Makes the Difference

You can make that difference

you can stop time

You light up my world

with a myriad colours

And I’m free to fly

your colourful butterfly

Patiently Impatient

There is this empty feeling

That engulfs me 

when you are not near

I can’t quite explain it

But it has me by the throat

It cuffs me and it holds me

Till I feel I might explode

Many Moons Ago

I see you but can I feel you
can I order you like I would
a delicasy I wish to savour
will the universe deliver you...

...unto one that desires a taste of exotic flavour


Yes I said this
and so I must believe it
yet does it apply 
to souls crossed over...

...or is it just a plate, to be devoured for the passover


Can you hear me
is it sweet
the sounds I say 
the words I speak...

...oh should I believe that life is as it is, for keeps


Is it real 
the sun that shines
are they real
the stars at night
can it be the moon thats so bright...

...will shine its light for you and me tonight.

Hook, Line & Sinker

Feeling pensive
stranger than strange
somehow the room
takes on your face

I see you everywhere
yet you're not near 
when I try to concentrate
it feels you are here

I think of a thought
then it feels out of place
I think of a verse 
its clothed in your name

Can you get out of my head 
and somewhere
much closer
so instead of this confusion
I can count myself the wiser

Just one word from you
and I can feel a smile
washing across me
like a sweet embrace

Just one touch 
and I know I'm sold
you have got me 
hook line and sinker
body and soul

Unlimitedly caught
in a net only you hold

Me in You & You in Me

I want to walk with you
In a shower of rain
lay with you in
noonday sunshine and
bask in the summer
of your gaze
as you idly
caress my soul...
for when twilight
becomes night and
we dance under
a silvery moon
in a lovers
eternal solitude.

              WAKING UP

When my eyes open
I see your face
My heart stops for a second
thoughts out of place

I need to hug you
feel your warm embrace
Feel your lips
taking me in...

Then sunlight kisses my hair and
falls across my face
making me
blink away
the sleep of your sweet image

A smile spreads across my cheeks
Without my knowing
It seems from afar
You have touched my soul...

And even though
You may not
realise it
My life is strangely wholesome and filled
With an untouchable happiness
That in me
You have Instilled.

Your My Sunshine & My Rain

You are, I can say...
like the sunshine and the rain.

Both  make me happy. 

One fills me with energy and inspiration 
to move ..get my work done, 
push me to do more than I think I can, 

explore new frontiers
reach for the stars.

This is you my sunshine.

The rain in you makes me feel...

Happy and cozy,
comfortable to chatter on, 
look deep within myself, 
see things from a different point of view
discover new sides of me
and...to dream. 

Silently Loud

The sky is beautiful 

breathtakingly so this eve
As I sit here and watch
the dusk turn the evergreens 

to midnight mysteries

My thoughts are pensive
wrapped around you
But its been touch and go
today just...making me feel
the spaces inbetween

exceptionally blue

As the birds sweetly singing
Turn down their tune
Giving way for the crickets
to come out and play
Melodies sway and touch my soul
In a strange and gentle way

I sit above closer to the tree tops
White snowy clouds 

Whisper by
Dusk is all around yet
the late evening sky... 

I recall your face
smiling at me
from your secret place

and light fills my heart

when time and space 

is apart

The warm tea
is a soothing substance
as it slides down my throat
Comforting, caressing
my now slightly submissive passions
Bridled 

from reaching
Overload

Awaiting I sit
half smile across my lips
Anticipation of that
Silent voice that takes me on
Indefinite trips...across
time and space
without limits

   Unreflected in My Reflection

I look in my eyes 

Mirror reflects

Emotions riding... 

A deep sea quest

My breasts heave and fall

I take a breath

longing within

Secluded and...kept

Can my reflection see

Deep inside...

Passions overflowing

Of a different kind

Unreflected

Yet, so real

Hidden 

In the realms

...within

I'm my own image

Twice kindled...

Inside.

                                                                                                                                                                           

Visibly Invisible

                                                       
My eyes focus I see you

A smile across your lips

You unaware, I see

The thoughts passing across

your face

Your smile gets wider

Touching your eyes

Tiny crinkles around the edges

Making them smile

Voice soft, enticing

You whisper

In my ear

One by one, the words

I want to hear

Caressing my mind

Reading my thoughts

Delving in deep

Taking them out

You touch my soul

With your fingers

My heat beat quickens

Your kisses linger

I take a breath

Let it out

Can’t think straight

When you’re about

Mentally challenged

Physically swept

I’m like Icarus

Into the flame

...I’ve leapt.

     The Chrysalis

 "Yesterday is but a memory,tomorrow an unchartered course...so live today 

so it will be a memory without remorse."

Yesterday I realised that I have been living in a cocoon and while it was safe and I believed it was my own personal space in my bubble, a bubble I imagined in my favourite shade of blue...I discovered that there was a reason for this. Sometimes some things slip our mind and hide in the far recesses of our feelings...hidden that is, until someone or something 'cracks the code.'

What you think is an accident can turn out to be a plan of life...or so I'm thinking. You would too in my shoes, when you meet the catalyst that pulls the chrysalis out of its cosy cocoon and croones in its ear to re-enter the world.

A world now far different from what was once familiar and yet, new, enticing, exotic, adventurous, fun and just that little bit crazy.

Yes today I discovered that place inside myself that sparks, rushes, runs, screams, jumps, leaps and flows. 

A place that is exciting, new, and tastes like a spoonful of strawberries and sour cream, mixed with chocoalate and mint that deliciously tingles on your tongue...making you squirm, moan and take an excited breath or...one too many. A place where...you feel safe yet, vulnerable. Scared yet, brave. Smiling and tired yet, full of a new life that gives you wings to fly.

Today I'm getting one step closer to the butterfly. Today I take baby steps. 

Then, a voice inside me says, " Is this good? Is this good?"

...and I realise I don't know.

I found a place where nothing is impossible...but is it real or was my cocoon safer. Sometimes we wish we could fly and then when we do...why, OH! WHY...do we worry and fret tryimg to think three steps ahead. As humans, are we to feel that happiness cannot be ours to steal. Do we deserve it. Are we who we are...or just that beautiful "Chrysalis" that is so strangely beautiful from afar.

As the night draws in and my thoughts grow small...into my cacoon I wish to crawl. Safe and sound from the world outside, touched  by no one by my side.

Tomorrow will I spread my wings...and become a butterfly with a million dreams.