Feelings

You made me feel like a million stars
Were shining on my heart
A wondrous sun...So brilliant, now mine
You made me feel like...The world.

Feeling You

I long inside where the rain drops can't hide
Wet as the pouring showers
Drenched to the core with passions yearning to be free...
Holding on to my patience...
Slipping through as daybreak brings a
wanting of sweet ecstasy.

Unspoken

Unspoken

You look at me...just gaze as I try desperately to make out what that look, can mean. Your face is held composed as you know others can see you just as I see you now, looking at me, looking at you.

I try my very best to focus on your eyes and see if I can recognize What it can be looking back at me. The picture isn't as clear as I wish it is yet, I am grateful, happy, beyond words that you chose to let me see you.
I smile as I can see even through your composure, the hint of a smirk on your lips. Your smile makes me smile and...I just keep smiling.
You looking at me and me looking at you.
No words spoken.
No need to it seems, as we gaze at eachother's faces...just faces, being enough.

You are looking at me intently focued on me and as I try to read that look of yours, I realise that I am still smiling.
I must have had this permanent slightly stupid grin on my face all this time.
How obvious!
Can you tell?
Can you read my face, my starry-eyed grin at you?
Can you see my eyes as they wander over your face. Your hair, your lips, your forhead. Can you see me try my level best to see the rest of you that's not visible through this small rectangle.

Can you read me? See through my gaze?

I can't.

I cann't tell for sure. Your gaze is hard to read yet, if maybe I let my guard down and really look I will see YOU and your feelings, just the way it is.
I feel loved by you.
I feel cared for, protected.
I feel heard and listened to.
What I want so much to hear, to feel, to know for certain...
...I can't see as clearly as I wish.

Then its over.
The moment held in time.

I think about it later.
Do you know I think about that moment that gaze...the whole day?

The afternoon...hot and dry follows and I think about that gaze.
The evening comes in and the cool crisp breezes blow and I think about you and the way he just watched me. Just my face.

The evening turns to twilght and I still think about your eyes, your lips, face. The lips I want to kiss so much. Those lips that instill a calm in me even as excitement rises. My heart beating faster my pulse increasing...desire mounting...waiting to be ridden across horizans yet unknown. Moments to be discovered in raw unsatiated passions.

The night covers me like a beautiful blanket and I think about that gaze as your eyes met mine through a barrier that could not stop us from connecting.
I feel you near in my heart, inside of me, in my soul, in my mind.

I know.
And yet, what is it that stops me from believing? Is it fear?
Yes!
The answer is no doubt fear of loving someone too darn much.
I can't admit it.
To admit will be to care fully, to embrace the magic and to let go of a reality I fear.

I smile and feel the warmth of that focused gaze on me.
Yet, I dismiss the assurance I seek and cling to the bubble I live in.

Make believe is so much easir than truth seeking. I must be satisfied with the fleeting hope that all is as I want it to be...and in that moment of uncertainly...I will be certain...
You are mine.