Feelings

I'm just wading through waterfalls
Chanting my song
Awaiting that kiss
When you come along

Wishing and wanting
The night to last on
You, holding me tight
Our bodies riding the storm

Sometimes I stay awake
my eyes ache to close
Yet, sleep evades the senses
dreams in dark and forgotten places
linger in the shadows

I call out to sheep
That long jumped over the fence
that white picket fence
I thought I'll own
outside the house I'd call home
with a lawn, a dog,
A handsome husband and
Little children all my own

But wait! It's mine...I own them all
except the sheep who jump
yet, never fall
when sleep draws near I fight it back
what I yearned for
a stark bright fact

Why must we long for things
when in reality what brings
we willing throw back
confused or guilty
Rarely satisfied, we want but received...are refused by a mile

Life is strange, emotions make no sense...our desire playing havoc
when we think the thoughts
want what's ours not
Long for things we think
we have not

Let me cuddle now
try to count them sheep
stop my fingers tapping out
thoughts that are between
waking and sleep
Hit the sack, get some dreamstakes
make my thoughts sour
To someone else's door
baring lights of a happy glow.